Hello lacquered lovelies! Today I have a polish that was terrifying for me to wear, along with a confession that might get too personal for some of you. I encourage you to skip to the end of all the text of this post if you don't want to read about me and feelings and stuff.
So this is Essie Limited Addiction. It's a pretty bright red creme that looks almost squishy like a jelly but doesn't apply like one. I used two coats and had a bit of shrinkage but I can't evaluate if it's because of the polish itself or because of my routine. I mix it up too often, I think. In the sunlight, it's a really bright red, but indoors it looks more brick coloured - brownish red.
This was two coats. The formula was good, kind of watery like most Essies seem to be but nothing to difficult for me to work with.
Full sunlight. But see how lighting can make such a huge difference...
It looks like a completely different polish here! Weird, right?
Now, this is a horrible picture, but I'm only showing you it because I burst out laughing when I saw it. My nails were super super shiny and you can actually see my roommate in them. Weird, right?
Now, onto the block of text. I hate wearing red nail polish. I hate it with a passion. Actually, I don't just hate it - I'm afraid of it. I'm afraid of how attention-grabbing it is, of how bright it is, of how traditional/expected it is and how it's considered sexy. This sounds stupid, but I'm totally serious. I don't know why a girl who glitterbombs like nobody's business (seriously, if you check our tags for "glitter", you'll see that most of the posts are mine!) thinks red is attention-grabbing, but I do. Or why I have a problem wearing red when I wore a neon shatter and thought it was weird that people kept commenting on it.
Here's a fun fact: For about four years of my teenage life, I never wore any colour. Ever. How unique, right? ;) I basically never wore any colours ever, unless forced to. Usually, the only pop of colour that I had was in my mani. Black, of course, with a carefully chosen accent nail of bright red... and let's just say that it wasn't my ring finger. Yeah. I was classy.
I try to force myself to wear red nail polish a lot, but it doesn't usually work. A week or so ago I wore Ruby Pumps to work. Yes, I had RP and had never worn it. Yes, it's a crime, blah blah. It was so so pretty and I did love it, just not on me. I got a ton of compliments on the polish and instead of showing off my nails like I usually do when that happens (... what? I'm just being honest), I would blush and hide them. Red nail polish scares the living something or other out of me. I know it seems really stupid but I can't help it. I think part of me hating it also has to do with the fact that I have really bad social anxiety sometimes. Like, I've always got social anxiety problems, sometimes they just get really bad. My giveaway sign (for the heart pounding/knees weak/head thundering with blood/blushing like mad/hands shaking symptoms... yeah, it's a problem) is that I start rubbing my forearm. It's hard to explain, but I basically run the heel of my hand down the middle of my forearm and down the back of my hand. I usually get bruises from this (oh anaemia) or it stays red for hours. I've found ways to lessen my social anxiety at work (by not looking directly at people and asking them questions related directly to what I am doing instead of giving them a chance to make small talk... mean, I know, but just someone asking me how I am before I can ask my usual "would you like a bag?" throws me off so badly that it takes me a while to recover) so most of my coworkers/supervisors haven't seen my anxious sign for a while, unless things are tense at work. Like they were today. I was tweeting about it and so many lovelies responded and gave me twitter hugs, I felt loved! Anyway, I spent the whole day that I wore Ruby Pumps doing that. So yeah. That's the story of why I'm afraid of a nail polish colour.
The weird thing is, I still stay away from most colours in my clothing, but I do like to wear red. Just not on my nails.
What about you lovelies? Do you have a nail polish colour that you feel uncomfortable about wearing? Are you very shy? What have you found to help you get over that shyness?
Thanks for reading, if you read it all! <3